The Should Haves

 

The “Should have” thoughts hit hard today.

Should we have taken Millie some where else for treatment?

Should we have tried other natural options?

Should we have pushed harder?

There are a never ending list of should haves...

These questions haunt me somedays. They also do no good to think about as they never end in peace.

We can’t change the past. We can’t change our minds. We can’t bring her back, but oh how my heart hurts if I focus on the whispered should haves.

I’m still part of a neuroblastoma support group that asks questions of parents who have been though this fight. I stay to encourage others but sometimes the questions take my breath away. Sometimes they cause me doubt. Some days they make my heart hurt knowing there are kids fighting for their lives battling this beast every single moment. Knowing there are other parents desperate for hope but often ending up disappointed and heartbroken like we did.

I know we made the choices we did FOR MILLIE’S sake. We chose what we thought was best in every situation with the hope of healing her. We did our best to avoid more pain for her in life and allow her passing to be peaceful.

We put her first, yet sometimes my heart taunts me with the thought, “Was it enough?”

{Because of Millie}

Blessings sweet friends…

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I still believe

in Millie’s Miracle

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