Sharing Millie

 

Every time I have the opportunity to share about Millie, I take it.

Each time I share our story, others thank me for being brave as I recount our pain.

Usually, the very people I am speaking to are the same people that will then share the pain they have walked through in life. Many times that pain includes grief from losing a child.

I share my pain, my heartache, my loss, and my life, all because I also want to share my hope, my joy, and my Jesus.

As I stood today sharing our story with a group of women, I learned a few things about myself.

One, each time I share our story, my heart mends the scar a little stronger. It will never heal back perfect like it was before Millie died, rather it will always have the mark of my precious girl and her love written on it. I do however become stronger with every word spoken.

Additionally, for the first time today, as I told the story, I was able to release another “what if” guilt I had carried:

“What if I had taken her for a blood test weeks earlier? Would that have caught the cancer in time?”

Tonight as I shared the story of Millie’s diagnosis day, I realized for the first time that the answer was:

No!

Simply put, the hospital did do a blood test the first night and still did not find cancer.

The Liver specialist did examine her and didn’t suspect cancer.

The test that finally found that cancer was taking over her abdomen was an ultrasound.

A simple, non invasive ultrasound. So painless and yet so much information being transmitted by those pictures. Remembering what diagnosed her, helps me to remember that I did the best I could with the information I had at that moment—the same any of us would do. It removes another “what if”.

It also seems that telling and retelling Millie’s story has value to others as people can see some of their own struggles lived out in my life. The simple reassurance given that we are not alone on these hard journeys.

It gives value to me as it solidifies my memories, my beliefs, my truths, and continues to shape my life.

I’m grateful to be able to share this story, again and again. To God be the Glory.

Because of Millie

Blessings sweet friends…

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I still believe in Millie’s Miracle

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