As I open my eyes I see mama sleeping in her big bed next to
mine, I am so glad I get to be close to her and daddy.
Sometimes at night I play a trick and ask to sleep in their bed
with them, but I never stay long. I like
my own bed with my monkey, bear, pink blankie, and the soft pillowcase. I snuggle under my Daniel Tiger blanket that
someone made for me.
As I call out to mama this morning, she gets up to unhook my
nutrition. I have a funny little button on my belly that daddy hooks me up to
every night before bed. One night I
looked down at my belly and it was glowing!
That was a funny surprise!
Wearing my fuzzy pajama pants, I head to the kitchen for
breakfast. I don’t eat much but I always
ask daddy if I can share his eggs. He
tries to make me an egg for myself, but it is not as good. I just want to eat his, off his plate, with his
fork. Next mama makes a pot of
coffee. When she pours her cup, she gets
the tiny baby cup out for me. I don’t
really like coffee, but I like to share with mama.
When brother wakes up we start fussing. We chase each other around the table and
through the house. Usually, he is trying
to kiss me! He really likes me. We have been best friends forever. He lets me
ride on his back like a horsy, but he is so gentle I don’t fall off very often. When I get mad at him I sometimes bite him
really hard!
I am ready to go outside to play. I run to find boots, either my mud boots or
brother’s green boots will work. Maybe
he won’t notice that I took his again! My
big sister takes me out to play on the swing.
She will push me high in the sky.
Usually, brother gets on too since he is still little. Next, we jump on the trampoline, then go to
play on the patio together. These two
are my friends!
After a while, my other older sisters will wake up. They are teenagers. The older one likes to make funny dancing
videos with me. She also lets me help
her cook pancakes. She babysits me when
mama has to leave.
The next sister likes to watch funny videos on YouTube with
me. I think I like the one about rolled ice cream the best. That looks yummy! I often get mad and even yell at her. I always tell her sorry. I know I’m not supposed to be mean to her.
My next sister takes me for rides on the 4-wheeler. She tells me all her secrets because she
knows I won’t tell. I don’t actually
understand most of it, but I do listen.
We snuggle and take funny face pictures.
We watch movies and string bead bracelets together.
I wish my big brother would come visit my house. He is married and has a baby. I sometimes call
him on his phone and ask, “Will you come?
Bring your baby so we can play together.
Will you come back?” I sure love
him and his family!
Some days my biggest brother is home from work and will let
me in his room to visit him. I like to
sit on his bed, eat his candy, and talk to him.
Even though he is big like mama and dad, he is a lot more fun than they
are. He chases me around the table, and
we yell as loud as we can while we run.
I sure love it when he is at home.
I have lots of people in my family. My biggest sister lives far away but I look
at her picture on the wall in our living room. I also have grandmas, grandpas, nieces,
and nephews, though I don’t know what all that means. I just like when they all come to play with
me.
After lunch, mama makes me take a nap in my bed. She closes the dark curtains and turns on my lullaby
music. Sometimes I fuss that I don’t
want to go to sleep, but I do it anyway.
I am not sure what the other kids do when I sleep but the house sounds
quiet.
When nap time is over we play playdoh and kitchen toys and Pet
Shops. I like all those little
toys. We make big messes with them.
My favorite thing to do is help daddy with the farm. He lets me ride in his orange tractor and help
him drive. It is really big, but I sit
on his lap. We feed the animals, our
cows, horses, llama, chickens, and rabbits.
Sometimes I help him paint the tiny house he is building
beside our barn. He lets me get messy,
but it is so much fun.
I am so glad I have a family to live with. I sure love each of them. It’s bedtime now. Mama cleans me up, then she rocks me until I ask
to get in my bed. We both think it’s the
best part of the day!
***This series is written from
the voice or perspective of Millie, our 3-year-old daughter who was diagnosis
with Stage 4, Neuroblastoma childhood cancer.
Millie battled for her life for one year, leaving us for heaven in 2020. Due to her young age, I can only imagine how
life felt to her. She was very articulate at 3, but her story is based off of
what I observed as her mama. Millie is
missed every day and still so very loved.
We grieve but not without the hope of seeing her in heaven. ***
~Sharing awareness, because
of Millie~
Blessings sweet friends…
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I still believe in Millie’s Miracle
☆｡･:*:･ﾟ Hebrews
11:1 ｡･:*:･ﾟ☆
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