Happy 8th Birthday Little Man

 

𝗛𝗮𝗽𝗽𝘆 𝟴𝘁𝗵 𝗕𝗶𝗿𝘁𝗵𝗱𝗮𝘆 𝗟𝗶𝘁𝘁𝗹𝗲 𝗠𝗮𝗻

You are growing up so fast. So many changes have come into your life the last few years.

You have learned to ride a bike without training wheels.

You love to build with Legos, going beyond simple creations to figuring out how to make machines that really work.

You have learned to read, though I still have to talk you into it.

You love playing with SJ, trying hard to keep up with anything she can do.

Often in school you get frustrated when she knows the answer and you don’t. Life is a ongoing competition between you two.

You have endured hardship and loss that other children your age are often not asked to walk through.

You miss Millie deeply. It amazes me how in tune you are with your grief. You know how to articulate what hurts deeply. You have no problem sharing your loss with me. We frequently talk about Millie, our memories of her, and our broken hearts. You want to watch her videos, often asking me if I have any new pictures or videos that you haven’t seen before. That’s where the sting begins—I will never have new ones to show you.

You requested that I hang the big picture of Millie above your bed, telling me you feel closer to her when you can reach up and touch it. I hope she always feel close in your heart and that your memories never fade.

As for me, people often ask if you are my youngest. I try to answer, “He is the youngest in our house”. I always want to acknowledge Millie’s precious life as our baby, but yes, you are now the youngest here.

I appreciate that you still ask to snuggle with me. Even when I am tired, I still try to rock you when you sneak in late at night and can’t sleep. Sometimes you get mad and yell at me, but you always have a kind heart to come back and make sure I have forgiven you and that my heart is okay. You are growing into a young man that I am proud of. You love big and have bigger emotions. You are passionate about fairness and justice. You are a little too forceful and rowdy but are gaining more self control with each passing day.

I am so glad you are my boy. I love you!

~Mama

Blessings sweet friends…

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I still believe in Millie’s Miracle

☆｡･:*:･ﾟ Hebrews 11:1 ｡･:*:･ﾟ☆

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