Life was Hard

 

There was a time that my life was hard.

I remember the year before my life got really hard, it already felt hard.

I remember the month before our lives changed, we were struggling.

I remember the week before devastation hit, I was already overwhelmed.

I remember the day before our lives changed forever, we already had plenty of problems.

I remember the morning before the doctor’s appointment—the traffic, the fussy children, the uncertainty, and the pain of watching my child hurt, it all felt so hard.

Then I heard the doctor uttered the eight words that changed the course of our lives— "I’m sorry it looks like your daughter has cancer”.

At that moment in time, life got hard. It’s not that it wasn’t hard before, it was. As a mom to many little children trying to balance a family, homeschooling, social commitments, and church responsibilities, life frequently felt hard. It felt busy, like it was in full speed with no chance to catch our breath. Honestly each of those things were hard, but even they weren’t the hardest thing I had ever faced.

During my lifetime I had already faced:

*Death of a parent

*Caregiving for a dementia ridden grandparent

*Life altering surgery

*Having a child walk away from my faith

*Marriage problems

While each was devastatingly hard, none of those things even came close to the hard of watching my little girl fight cancer and eventually having to hand her back to Jesus.

Most people would agree that the loss in my life is so incredibly hard…

Are there harder things in life to walk through? I don’t know and honestly, I hope I never find out. What I do know is that this new hard has given me the perspective that whatever place you are in, it is your hard. You may not know my hard, but I praise God you don’t. I may not feel your hard and for that I am thankful. We each have our own hard times to walk through, and it is those things that help us have compassion for others and their pain. This is not a competition about who has the hardest life, the most problems, or the deepest grief. No this is an invitation to step into someone else’s hard times and be a support.

My life is hard, but I'm sure your life is hard too. Together we can ease each other’s burdens and share our pain.

Blessings sweet friends…

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I still believe in Millie’s Miracle

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