𝐄𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐛𝐨𝐝𝐲 𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐮𝐫𝐞𝐬 𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐮𝐠𝐠𝐥𝐞𝐬 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐫 𝐥𝐢𝐯𝐞𝐬.
For some it last but 𝐚 𝐦𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭, a fleeting problem with a soon revealed answer.
Others struggle through 𝐚 𝐬𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐨𝐧, often a long dry and parched time where they wonder if the pain will ever end.
There are still more who will suffer 𝐮𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐥 𝐞𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐭𝐲 begins, with pain continuing to resurface over the years that has no earthly resolution.
𝐄𝐚𝐜𝐡 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐬𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐮𝐠𝐠𝐥𝐞𝐬 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥, challenging, and often consuming. Every single person who meets a challenge, longs for their time of suffering to be over sooner rather than later.
In scripture the Apostle Paul gave an example of how he prayed for his problems to be taken away, however his request was not answered in a way he desired here on earth.
“8 Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. 9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 10 That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” 2 Corinthians 12:8-10
When Millie was 2 and often cried, life seemed hard every single day. I was worn out being the mama to a large family. I was still homeschooling 4 kids, had a preschooler and a toddler. Life was in fast forward, and I always seemed to be looking toward the next destination, rather than content where we were now. This was a momentary problem.
When Millie was diagnosed with cancer and we understood the brevity of her illness, we started to walk in a season of cancer treatments. This problem seemed huge, hard, and often devastating. We looked toward the hopeful end of her treatment being total healing.
When Millie died, we entered the space of grief until eternity begins for us. This has no resolution, and we will continue to carry it with us for as long as we are still on earth. How we carry it will be the questions? Will we use the pain we walk through for the purpose of helping others? Will we simply become a shell of a human just waiting on heaven? Will we ever be who we were before cancer and death? ((--the answer is no, we are forever changed!)) Will we find who we will be now as we continue on this life journey?
Having walked through all three types of these problems, the last one helps me to better understand the phrase, “Don’t sweat the small stuff!” So many onetime BIG things become much smaller after you lose a child. The things of this world just don’t matter as much. We don’t hold as tightly to them now. Attaining more stuff, living the dream, attending every event, or visiting with every person whose path I cross all fade in the light of child loss.
On the opposite side of the same coin, the things of this world don’t take a priority as much as they once did, but maybe they should. It’s important to grasp the perspective that even though we are sad, some things should still matter greatly. Our walk with Jesus, our family, finding joy in life, caring for ourselves physically and emotionally, friends, and even everyday living. While we are in this world still waiting for heaven, we need to redeem the time God has given us.
Sharing this as a reminder to myself... This current issue is probably not the hardest I’ve ever faced. It is temporary, and it will get resolved. There is always hope until the last breath. I can trust Jesus to use the word of my testimony for his glory.
My heart is filled with gratefulness that no matter where I am in my journey, Christ is right beside me. In the simple times, the hard times, and the devastating times, he never leaves me or forsakes me. He knows my needs, but also seeks a relationship with me. He gave his life for mine so that I could be set free from the chains of sin.
I am grateful that I am his child, and I am grateful for the Grace of God to lead me through the deep valleys and into to green pastures (places of rest).
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I still believe in Millie’s Miracle
☆｡･:*:･ﾟ Hebrews 11:1 ｡･:*:･ﾟ☆
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